hi me, it's me

i just love life, even when i hate life. you know what i mean? of course, i never really hate life, but i think you do know what i mean because sometimes maybe you feel the same way.

i love that life is dimensional and takes different shapes and i get to figure out what those shapes are by guessing and exploring.

i love that when life is a shape with corners and shadows, i sometimes find presents that i didn't see at first. i love unwrapping life presents.

like this one: sometimes i surprise myself. isn't that cool? i've been with me for 27 years, and there's still plenty of horizon. chuch told me today that i am able to have a very complex life because i have 100 billion (!) nerve cells in my brain, and none of these cells is random. they are each placed in specific connection because of the way i use them. that makes it seem obvious and impossible that i could surprise myself.

i've been sharing some marvisms on here, and i guess that's because we hang out a lot lately. we have professional development lunches, therapeutic drives, and mindless movie nights. all are great. the other day he told me that just because i don't see truth doesn't mean it isn't there. it probably just means that my eyes aren't ready yet.

that's why i get to surprise myself. and why we get to surprise each other. and why i love life.