sometimes i feel like i don't get people. like, people in general and people in specific. like, every conversation, every interaction, every imagining of conversations and interactions that don't actually happen. sometimes i can't stop asking myself: should i have said something different? are we understanding each other? do the meanings i attach to my words survive the flight from my mouth to those ears?
i want so badly to get people. i want to know the right things to say. i want to catch the slight jokes and be able to tell when someone is laughing at me and when someone's not.
on the one hand, i think i shouldn't care so much. all this sideways glancing is juvenile or representative of insecurity. on the other hand, i think, what else matters?
doesn't it seem like it should be easier to understand creatures that are so like me?
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I feel the same way Cath. I get so perturbed when I talk to someone and they seem like they totally understand and then when they rephrase what I said, it is not at all the same. There are few people who I think actually understand the meaning within the words that come out of my mouth. So I am dancer :)
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